ALONE :(

(Taken from old blog site---September 13, 2005)


I feel so alone...as if everything bad that's bound to happen as a consequence of what i did is occuring all at the same time...Am still hurting..for causing pain to the people who's only fault was to love me...and for finally realizing what it's like to lose the one love...Now, the repurcusion of the things i've done is finally sinking in...As i track back to the time when i felt so loved and cared for, when everyone around me made me feel like I'm the only one they need. What have i done?have i gotten too consumed by it that i wanted it all?How can i be so insensitive to allow the one person who's keeping you strong now to be the one to suffer from all this. Ironic as it is, but during these moments of frustration and rejection, you thrive on the love of the only person who showed you true and unconditional love....and the same person you turned away from. You live on your moments, when everything just seems to fall into place at the end of the day the minute you see him smile as he take you in his arms.i lived for this....but i let it go....now am alone...on my own..