I miss you AMARA.

I just saw a video of my daughter performing at her very first school play in Nursery school and my heart broke. She was amazing. She's the most beautiful, adorable, talented two year old (and im not just saying this bec im her mom) among all the students and I'm so proud to be her mom. Too bad I wasn't physically there to witness it.Thus...my heart is broken into pieces.

It's been exactly 33 days since I last held my daughter AMARA in my arms, hug her tight, give her butterfly kisses, put her to sleep....and it's killing me. I miss her so much. This is the longest time we've ever been away from each other----Since the day she was born, we've always been together.From sun up to sun down,morning, noon, and night...i wake up and sleep with amara in my arms so I guess you can imagine how miserable these 33 days have been, trying to adjust to the fact that she's not with me.

The distance ---as bad as it has been, has given me a lot of insights about the importance of being there for your child every step of the way especially during her fundamental years. It's only been a month, but it seems like I've missed out on the many things that she has learned within the 4 weeks of my absence. I cant even believe that ONLY a month has gone by because it seems like I havent seen her forever....and every time I get the chance to check on her, she seems to be learning a new thing each time: How she learned quite a number of songs within the first two weeks--Ring-around-the-roses with matching "fall down" towards the end, DO-RE-MI from the Sound of Music, and the infamous "I can sing better than you"; she can now count from 1-20, a five more improvement from her 1-15. She can now make thumbs up sign saying "good job" or bring out the pointing finger to say "No no no no noooo" and the many many more wonderful new things that she discovers everyday...It brings me so much joy just knowing that she was able to adjust very well despite my absence but I cant help but feel bad because I cannot share it with her.

BUT... Im coming home in a week.Until then, I will keep myself happy by just appreciating and enjoying her everyday progress as I see my baby turn into such a cute little woman----yes like an adult;mind you, terrible twos dont apply to her...

I love you AMARA and always keep in mind that I will do everything to give the best for you.