"ABOUT ME" --- newly improved!

(taken from old blog site---november 13, 2005)

everytime i update my profile...i post my previous about me on my blogs just so i can keep track of my ever changing perspectives in life...hey am a girl...am entitled to be fickle mindes...read on and check out the new one on myprofile..

I'd like to believe that i'm a "work in progress"...have this knack for driving away people that i care about...i think it's an acquired habit.Not that I'm proud of it...don't get me wrong...I want nothing more than to be loved in the same way that I love...but I guess I'm just too sacred to let go completely ( i think I already heard this from someone...) Don't want them to get too close to me and when I feel that they're starting to...oh man, I freak out. I seem to have built a "4th wall" (it's a theater term..look it up!)that's too hard to penetrate.Guess my love for theater has gotten me too used to it that apply it in real life too.Hahaha!Dang...that sucks huh?!well, Someone told me I tend to be too stubborn daw...yah, I guess I do huh?I just won't admit it...but hey, am not that bad...i guess the brighter side of it is when you do penterate into that wall...hey, believe it or not..am a slave for love!:-D...

really!

contrary to what i previously said...it sucks to be alone!hahaha:-) but it should never stop us from believing that when the time comes...we'll find that happiness that we're looking for...I just wish there won't be days when its right in front of your face...hehehe!which reminds me...christmas is fast approaching...hay...sad..