D(ONE)

(Taken from an old blog site--)

Done
Function: adjective
Date: 14th century
1 : arrived at or brought to an end;
2 : doomed to failure, defeat, or death

Never thought this 4-letter word can be so...fatal. One syllable. And it's enough to wash away the one thousand and one dreams that were created and built from the non-existence of this WORD. The pursuit for permanence and a future that awaits with so much promise have fallen short of empty.All because...It's DONE.Shit.I HATE this word (and whoever said this). This is now my most hated word in the world....there's just so much hopelessness,defeat and finality in it.

I always ends up in this boat...But I thought this one was an exception. I ALMOST believed that it was going to be different from the rest...well, almost. What hurts the most is that I gave up all my defenses. I didn't see this coming....Having been used to being always on guard, Im the first to push that person away the moment I feel threatened. That's why I end up being on the losing end all the time because I'm just too cautious to give anyone a chance to come too close. And then you came along.

You made me believe in PERMANENCE. You made me believe that forever exists--no matter what. That's its a reality waiting to happen if only I could open up my heart to it and let go. But oops! I did it again...

You had me fooled by your selflessness. I gave all my love without inhibition...all of that and more. Only to end up here. Back where you picked me up. Sorry L, welcome back to the same boat. Another one bites the dust...this time it's me.

I HATE YOU for doing this. Your words were nothing but empty promises. And I believed it. YES, It was good,no, GREAT, while it lasted... IT ALWAYS IS...and thank you for that...Ive learned a lot. BUT I TOLD YOU there's no such thing as permanence....you just proved me right.

It hurts so much.I really thought you're D'ONE. But now it's DONE.